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Goodnight, My American Dream. March 12, 2011

Posted by littlebangtheory in Love and Death, Politics and Society.
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A Short Fiction woven from loose threads of the unraveling fabric of our Society.

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Remember when that old Ford truck was new?

Well, I do.

I remember diggin’ potatoes, I was just little, and Daddy tellin’ me he hadn’t saved the farm back in the Bad Years by sittin’ on his hands, that he’d done whatever it took, some things he wasn’t proud of, but mostly just a whole lot o’ hard work that never stopped.  Eatin’ mostly potatoes and chicken and every kind o’ thing he could grow, and ’cause nobody had money to buy it, givin’ away the rest.  Daddy taught me to work hard, and to never give up, and to dream big and pray that I’d get half-way there.

When I came home from The War, Uncle Sam put me through college and gave me a loan, and I bought that truck brand spankin’ new.  Daddy was so proud, you’da thought it was a miracle or somethin’.  Said it made life a whole lot easier than before.  Sometimes we’d take her for a turn ’round the fields after it got too dark to work, just to be able to sit down and relax and look at what we’d done.

Yeah, Daddy loved that truck.

We worked side by side, plantin’ and harvestin’ and tendin’ the milk cows till I got married and the kids started to come, and I needed some real money to make ends meet.  I got a job in the mill, a good job, a union job, and with my education they moved me up pretty fast and gave me my choice of shifts.  I took second so I could help Daddy most of the day.  He wasn’t gettin’ any younger, and I owed him just about everything I knew or had.

Then Momma got sick, and Daddy had insurance, but they dropped her, just like that.  He mighta’ been late on a payment; payin’ the bills had always been somethin’ Momma took care of.  Guess we never really knew how hard she worked, takin’ care of everything indoors, puttin’ up food to get us through the winter and takin’ care of the business end of things too.

Daddy had to take out a mortgage on that old farm, first one ever, to pay the medical bills.  It damn near killed him; it’d been his dream to leave it to me and Jane and the kids.  Said we could sell it if times ever got that rough.

When Momma passed and the hospital bills kept comin’ we sold the place off, bit by bit.  First the milk cows, then the machinery, then a couple of back lots.  Daddy all but stopped talkin’, except to the kids.  He’d tell them about the Good Old Days, when he and their Daddy used to dig potatoes together.

We might have made it through those bills if my job hadn’ta gotten “right-sized.” That’s a dishonest way of sayin’ they could Git ‘er Done cheaper in Mexico.

Well, I guess Mexicans got to eat too.

When the bankers came and put the foreclosure notice on the front door, Daddy wouldn’t even look at it.  He went in and out the back way, like he did when the farm was working.  He’d go up in the pasture where the old Ford truck had stopped runnin’ and sit for hours, his knuckles white on the steering wheel, staring off at God knows what, maybe some scene from his past, him and Momma doin’ something nice together.

We had thirty days to get out.  Jane and I got a little apartment in town, not much of one with me not working and her not making much, but we had a little room for Daddy.  He said he wasn’t leaving, but we knew the reality of it, and planned accordingly.

It was a hard winter for moving, real icy, and the two of us did it ourselves, not trusting Daddy’s bad back to move even small stuff.  We sent the kids off to their cousins’, and Jane and I had our first night alone in our new “home.”  It was too sad to be romantic, and we held each other in silence ’till we drifted off into something like sleep.

We got back to the farm around 9 the next morning and found the house empty.  The wood stove was cold, the wood we’d left for Daddy still piled by its side.  It wasn’t ’till then that I went back to the kitchen door and saw the tracks heading up the hill, blown over from a long night of wind.

We found my Daddy sitting in that old Ford truck, his rigid fingers still wrapped around the steering wheel, cheeks whitened with tears turned to frost, glazed eyes staring imploringly at God and Momma.

Jane took it pretty hard.  She kept saying she couldn’t understand, that we had a place all set up for him, that this just wasn’t right.

But I understood.  That old Ford truck had been the last place I’d ever seen my Daddy smile.

Goodnight, Daddy.

Farewell, My American Dream.

Outsourced. January 18, 2010

Posted by littlebangtheory in Politics and Society.
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First to the American South, then to Mexico, then to God knows where – our union jobs, our manufacturing jobs, the ones kids came out of high school and followed their Dads into, set for life, as long as they had the backbone to do the deed.

They’re gone now, and their respective edifices are being torn down:

And so it goes, and so it goes.  We relinquish our grasps on what’s real in favor of what’s promised, always to be denied by those who stand to gain from the Global Shuffle.

The little town of Erving, along the Millers River, loses, as Wall Street rakes in the chips.

And so it goes.